The Big Easy

Fashion can throw-up some vexing dilemmas, can't it? Like.....loving something...but knowing it won't 'suit' you. Normally, I just wear whatever I love *Rebel Face*....which brings me to this new mesh tee. To say I heart it would be an understatement. In fact, I can't wait to rush back to Primark and scoop up a few more in different colours....initially however I was thinking that I just couldn't go there. 

Basically, for most of my life, I had the flattest stomach EVER. Like, stupid flat. Concave flat. I never used to give it a second thought. I would happily wear crop-tops and bodycons and be carefree and skip through the fields like a spring lamb (spot the slight exaggeration). But then....it all went Pete Tong.

I went on the Pill (for my skin). It made me fat. And while it cleared the skin on the lower-half of my face (Androgen Territory) it made the top half of my face much much worse (Oestrogen Territory). So I stopped taking it. But that wasn't the end of my trouble. That Christmas I had the worst stomach pain a girl can have. I just thought "Shouldn't have eaten so much" and hoped it would go away. But it didn't. It lasted for 2 days and coz I'm stubborn I refused to go to the doctor. Eventually, after not sleeping/eating/anythinging I had to get some help. I had to have...SQUEAMISH ALERT (soz)....my gallbladder and a bit of my liver removed. Nice! I was warned it would affect my digestion...and naturally there would be scars. Initially my tummy stayed flat. But then it started swelling. Like a balloon. Again, coz I hate going to doctors, I just hoped it would go away. But.It.Never.Has. Eventually, I had to have a diagnosis...which was the standard doctor 'Dunno What It Is So Let's Call It IBS' response. I look at K-Middi's baby bump and think "Wow, her stomach is actually flatter than mine". And Sweet Baby Jesus have you seen Luisana Buble's completely non-existent baby bump? Unreal! I care about my health, obvs, but I care about fashion more :) Not being able to wear the stuff I used to breaks my heart. But I thought maybe, just maybe I could get away with wearing this tee. So I'm braving it here :) Hope I haven't sent you to sleep....again. Have a lovely sunny Wednesday xx

Tee- Primark

Jeans- Zara

Heels- New Look